In order to be determined, you need a very strong reason why you're doing something. I've been trying to lose weight for years (since I was 12) and I've never ever succeeded. Last year, I started exercising and eating clean for almost 3 months (Idk where the determination came from) and I lost a whooping 4kgs. It didn't last long as I went to Seoul not long after and gained back all the weight I lost. No, I did not gain any weight in Seoul. But I started eating without any control and did not exercise. Sigh I'm now at my fat-est and I'm so sad.
Today, I started thinking... What should be my reason why I wanna lose weight? Because I wanna look good? Because I want a boyfriend? No, not these superficial reasons. I wanna lose weight for... myself. I wanna be healthy and do not wanna regret when I'm old and sick. Also..... I wanna be able to wear all the pretty clothes. Okay this is pretty superficial but I'm sick of having to always look for the largest size when I'm shopping and most or rather all pretty clothes don't come in plus sizes. And and, I wanna be able to wear stilettos and not look like those stilettos are gonna break anytime.
You don't have to be skinny to be pretty. In fact, I feel that girls mut have a curves? Now, this coming from a fat girl.... People will go like "omg she's just saying it because she's fat. she's jealous." Yall realise sthg? Fat girls can't say that skinny girls are skinny, people will think they're jealous. Skinny girls have all the rights to say fat girls are fat and no one gives a shit about it.
I don't know what's the reason for me blogging this out. Just wanna let these thoughts out I guess. Quoting Drop Dead Diva. To all you skinny girls, "I'm sorry you need someone like me to make yourself feel better."
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