Veni Vedi Voici

Can one lose their creativity? I think I lost mine. Hmm Celine says as you grow older, you stop believing then you stop being imaginative and hence your creativity level goes down. I can't seems to be able to put my thoughts into words anymore.. be it in Mandarin or English. Well, I'm not saying that I was an awesome writer but I think I used to be able to write pretty well in uh Mandarin. But now... hmm just nothing.

Really stressed up over my English module. My instructor has really high expectations and my writing skill is nowhere near her standards. She spent half an hour the other day explaining the difference between "I had lost my keys" and "I lost my keys". Honestly, I never ever felt that there was a difference between the 2. Oh and our first assignment, a definition essay, is due in about 2 weeks time. I'm stucked between the topics Love & Bravery. Been thinking about creative, fresh, new definitions Love for the past few nights before I sleep and I just can't think of any. This is bad. Wanted to get the outline done by this week so I can enjoy the CNY holiday (no school for the entire week yays). I hate how I'm so unimaginative, uncreative and cliche. Come on C, you can do better than this.

In recent years, I feel like I'm battling with myself. I feel different, very different. Hmm what my marketing lecturer said today hit me. The only way for you to predict the future is to BE the future. Idk what my future lies but I guess I decide my own future?